Friday, December 24, 2010

i realised, i am just a slut for you to touch.
when you are done and over with me, you will go back to her.
you hurt me enough.
you won't see me anymore :D
i will be gone.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 10:19 PM10:19 PM

i can't deny my love for you.
i can't deny how much i miss you.
how much i want to be with you.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 2:12 AM2:12 AM

Thursday, December 23, 2010

somehow, somewhere, i still wish for you to be mine.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 10:10 AM10:10 AM

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

in the end,
i still couldn't resist myself.

the temptation of holding your hands,
the temptation of hugging your body,
& the temptation of kissing your lips.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 10:22 PM10:22 PM

the guy i love is someone else's.
the guy that i do not love is always there for me.
now what?

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 12:16 AM12:16 AM

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

You're in my mind, you're in my heart,
I wish I knew, right from the start,
All my friends say, you'd break my heart,
A heartbreaker, right from the start.
I tried to fight it, I tried so hard,
And everyday I'd pray to God,
That you and me, were meant to be,
But you had another, you had a lover,
And now it's gone, I don't know why,
I feel like crying, just wanna die,
I can't look at you, and you know why,
Know I tried so hard, to catch your eye

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 1:44 AM1:44 AM

Saturday, December 18, 2010

teach me how to love again.
teach me how to be normal again.
teach me how to be happy and smile again.

you don't really care if anything happens to me isn't it?

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 10:34 AM10:34 AM

you started to ignore me.
its been 4 mths since you left me.
do you still rmb how you dump me the other day?
how i cried for you to stay.
yet, you wouldn't even look back at me?
is she that good to you?
am i forgotten?

i wish i could just die right.
even when i type all these words out,
i couldn't stop my tears from falling.

many friends asked me what present i wanted for christmas.
you was all i needed for christmas.
every year, on my birthday,
i would wish to last a long relationship with you.
i want to start a family with you when you are out from NS.
nevertheless, everything was my own wishful thinking.
i wouldn't get the chance anymore.
i want to hate you.
but my heart couldn't bring myself to do so.
why???
why did you have to make me suffer like that?
why did you have to make me hate the 15th?
why did you have to make me so miserable?!
can anyone just tell me why?

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 2:10 AM2:10 AM

Sunday, December 12, 2010

can't help but think of those times i spent with you.
pictures and some memories will have to help me through.
i miss someone to hold.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 3:21 AM3:21 AM

Sunday, December 5, 2010

i miss you badly.
you had no idea how much i miss you.
how much i want to hold you in my arms again.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 10:17 AM10:17 AM

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Dear God,

the only thing i ask of you is to hold him when i am not around.
when i am much too far away to hold him in my arms.
when he alr has another girl by his side to hold him.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 11:36 PM11:36 PM