Thursday, July 31, 2008

ii decided to create a blogg finally.. actually i had created bloggs before this.. but somehow, ii just couldn't rmb der password and login.. hahas.. ii am a sotong right?? anyway, my life is kinda boring.. so there isn't much fer miie to interest euu guys anyway.. it used to be more interesting when khoo zhen dong was still wit miie.. however, now tat he had dumped miie, my life is left wit studies, friends & band..

8 days after euu left my life, ii am still crying fer euu, starving myself, nort sleeping at night & nort studying.. although ii am nort emo-ing in class anymore.. hais.. ii reallie wan euu to return to my life.. life is just black & white without euu.. ii miss ur huggs, ii miss your kisses, ii miss der way euu tease miie.. yet, ii noe, euu wouldn't return to miie anymore.. ii noe tat ii had treated euu fer granted.. ii noe how hurtful it is when euu are gone from my life.. just in one say.. ii begged fer euu to return.. ii pleaded wit euu.. cried all ii could.. yet ur heart was solid.. euu said euu learnt from your sister.. ii couldn't say much thereafter... however, ii have learnt nort to emo in class anymore.. no matter how sad ii am, i noe i can't show it to my friends.. because ii noe they care alot fer miie.. especially xiao jing.. tat day ii broke down fer euu halfway during my accounts lecture, she cried tgt wit miie because she couldn't comfort miie.. ii realised it was so heartbreaking to see her cry fer miie.. therefore, ii made sure no matter how upset ii am over euu.. ii must nort show it to her.. ii had broken your heart.. seeing miie crying in lecture should be heartbreaking fer jing jing as well.. hais.. ii reallie wished euu would return.. if euu dun wan, ii can't force euu too..

last night, after euu told miie tat jia wei and your daughter confessed love to euu, ii couldn't sleep at all.. yes.. euu told miie to wait.. i said ii would wait.. but now, ii am so so hurt by euu, ii reallie wonder when am ii going to go crazy.. if ii realie went crazy.. would ii still be able to wait?? my exams are coming & ii have no mood to study at all.. ii realie feel like ending my life.. once & fer all.. but euu wouldn't allow miie to.. i am troubled & stressed out.. tired ob life.. tired ob trying..

baby tigeress was der name euu had given miie... pls dun leave miie!!
ii reallie go down on my knees to begg euu le...

lonely...

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 8:51 PM8:51 PM