Sunday, May 31, 2009

der "people" in restaurant is damn retarded. cus when they see a chair they practically sit down when der table & chairs were used to create a maze so that der "people" will walk longer. LOL. so practically, they just sit down there & ask where is der table. LOL.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 11:35 AM11:35 AM

Saturday, May 30, 2009

okies. ii am sick today. damn sick. found this video. damn funny. see le keep laugh..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=flTqYYRTIZc

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 11:27 PM11:27 PM

Friday, May 29, 2009

spot my boyfriend. lmaos.

her teriyaki patty set.

my salmon omelette.

miie!!!

her leggs, look like bamboo right? LOL.

xiao jing :D

after sch, ii went to yishun wit xiao jing to eat omelette rice!!! took pics on der mrt. hahas. and ii realised smth. her leggs looked like bamboo poles. LOL. its a good thing luhh. cus she skinny mahhs. after tat went to find dar.. damn shagged. so slept at his house. thn after tat went fer dinner at mac. cus ii wanted der cup. LOL.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 9:33 PM9:33 PM

Thursday, May 28, 2009

today's camwhoring!!!

necklance dar bought fer miie!!! nice right??

don't laugh when euu see this pic. LOL.

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tata!

okies ii was really bored. trying to entertain myself. =.=

firdaus.

miie and xiao jing

this was saturday's studying. we really did study okies!

upload some retarded pics ii took over der week. dun laugh okies. ii noe its damn retarded but just bear it wit miie. cus this whole week just couldn't suck anymore.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 10:52 PM10:52 PM

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

congrats myself fer passing my POFM test today!!! fcuk der teacher fer giving us such a killer paper. really, this is der only test ii studied so hard fer & yet, der teacher had to give us a killer paper. she is helping der sch to save money. wan help der sch make us retain one more year. so tat they can earn more revenue. =.= arggg. angry siol!!!

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 9:44 PM9:44 PM

Sunday, May 24, 2009

everything euu do had to resort to violence.
euu are no father ob mine.
fcuk off & get der fcuk outta my life.
euu gort ur own hands & leggs.
yet, everything euu had to ask others to do it fer euu.
just becus euu are earning an income in der family?
LOSER.

had been watching youtube videos lately.
didn't meet dar today.
thanks to der fcuker above.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 10:43 PM10:43 PM

Saturday, May 23, 2009

mugging wit xiao jing today fer my POFM paper on tuesday. we gort pics to show tat we are studying de okies!!! but ii lazy upload. wait till ii nort so lazy thn upload bahhs. hahas. went to find dar after tat. coco keep scatch miie. >.< pain sia.. wanna cut off all her nails alr. btw, coco is a dogg.

男孩和女孩从小就认识，男孩经常约女孩一起去村外的池塘边捉小虾，每次男孩总是满载而归，女孩却是两手空空，女孩总是失落的含着眼泪，独自一个人回到家，然后闷闷不乐。晚饭前，男孩敲响女孩家的门，女孩一见是男孩，扭头就走，男孩追上前，对女孩说：“对不起，我把你的虾都捉走了，给，我把它们养在小鱼缸里，送给你。”女孩眉头一放，慧心的笑了，就这样反复着他们纯纯的童年，转眼，他们各自成长着。

——纯纯的“对不起”。

男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩，经常会把女孩逗到哭，然后又去哄女孩到她笑为止，直到长大后，也是如此。男孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有，然后躲在远处，看女孩着急的走投无路，等着女孩拨通他的手机，然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。可男孩，依旧那么喜欢这样的女孩。他窃窃的从远处走来，灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自行车，任由女孩在一旁发牢骚，男孩却暗自窃喜，然后委屈的对女孩说：“对不起，我知道错了。”随即，女孩便会柔弱下来，告诉男孩下次不允许那样，男孩点头，于是，那时的他们每天都充满着笑容。

——“对不起”的快乐。

大学毕业后，男孩和女孩各自有了工作，男孩的工作总是很忙，有时一个月都休息不到一次，而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她，终于，他们有了第一次的吵架。女孩委屈的哭起来，可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩：“这是为了我的工作。”这场冷战持续了很久。终于，女孩还是忍不住，主动和男孩和好了。后来很多次男孩和女孩都因为这样的小事而吵得不可开交，可每次，都是女孩先妥协。那年，女孩生日，男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日，女孩欣喜不已，她在家精心打扮，等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日，这一等就是凌晨，女孩在睡梦中醒来，脸上挂着泪痕，男孩见到女孩，心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕：“对不起，嫁给我好吗？”于是男孩拿出一枚戒指。

——“对不起”也是一种承诺。

婚后，男孩的事业大有成就，经常有许多应酬，而女孩已经成为一个专职太太了，每天在家为男孩准备热菜热饭，把家里收拾的干干净净，她经常会去菜场买回一些小河虾放在鱼缸里养着，男孩总问他为什么，女孩却总是慧心的一笑。
慢慢的，男孩每次回家，身上总是充满了不同的香水味道，而每次没等女孩问，男孩总是忙着解释说应酬太多。女孩黯然，那时起，女孩不太爱说话了，也不像以前那么开朗了，她总是喜欢成天的呆在家里，抱着枕头看韩剧，然后随着剧情哭泣，夜深时，就会疯狂的大哭。以后的日子里，男孩回来时，身上的香水味只有一种味道了，女孩从来不问，可是男孩依旧说：“对不起，今天又去应酬了。”

——“对不起”，谎言的开始。

渐渐的，男孩开始不回家，或总是在外出差，男孩的事业越来越好，身边都是奉承的人，他每天都在别人的恭维下自豪的笑着，而女孩，几乎不出门了，她总会去超市买上很多方便面，和一些必要的日用品，然后把自己关在家里，这一呆就是很久。从前，女孩会经常和男孩一起聊聊天，而现在，她孤身一人，身边没有一个可以说话的人，每次打电话问男孩什么时候回家，男孩总是仓促的回答到：“对不起，我太忙了。”女孩，失落的扣上电话，那以后她再也没有问男孩什么时候会回家。

——“对不起”，只是个敷衍的方式。

女孩学着电视上的样子，开始打扮自己，她觉得男孩不回家，也许是看腻了她，她决定不再颓废，自己的幸福应该靠自己争取，而不是无谓的后退。那天，女孩心血来潮，按照地址去了男孩工作的地方，那是女孩第一次去，也是唯一的一次。女孩涩涩的按下电梯，来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方，她细细的观察这个公司的每个角落，这里的一切，她都觉得很好看。终于，绕过长长的办公走廊，她来到男孩的办公室，轻轻的推开门……女孩愣住了，眼前看到的不是自己的丈夫，也不是那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子，更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男孩，而是一个正在和别的女人做爱的男人。那个女人坐在桌子上，******的发出微弱的呻吟声，那个男人，仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽……

许久，男孩才发现了女孩，男孩惊慌失措，忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。可女孩，转身离开了。男孩飞奔出去，追着女孩，那晚，大雨袭击了整个城市。女孩不顾男孩的叫喊，径直往前跑，往回家的方向跑，男孩在女孩后面大喊：“对不起，我还是爱你的，对不起，我真的只爱你。”可女孩，始终没有听见。

——这样的“对不起”太伤人。

男孩一直都没有找到女孩，女孩失踪很久了。男孩的世界已经一片黑暗，无心工作，无心花天酒地，他想不到女孩可以去哪里，因为女孩没有朋友，她唯一的朋友就是男孩，男孩终日守着电话机，手机24小时不关机，怕错过了女孩的电话。这一等就是半年多。快递为男孩送来一个盒子。

男孩打开一看，里面是许多河虾的标本，有的在树叶边休息，有的在水草里躲着，各式各样的河虾标本，旁边放着一封信。“ 我始终没有勇气再见到你，可能是我太懦弱，也或许是我根本不想见到你，我想这些『警告：注意文明用语！』应该过的没什么两样吧，我很好，我学会了离开你怎么让自己存活，我懂得了怎样赚钱养活自己，而不用每天等着你回家，为你烧一桌热腾腾的饭菜，直到凉了也不见你的人，我的手机已经不用了，因为我已经不会再为你24小时的不关机，让自己饱受辐射的折磨。我懂得怎样去爱惜自己，珍惜自己的本来应该美好的生活。我想，我是可以忘记怎么去爱你的，因为你把我的爱弄得遍地麟伤。离婚协议书，就压在鱼缸的底下，你签完字，按照地址给我寄过来就行了。对不起，我想我是真的累了。”男孩按照地址找去，他满心希望能够见到女孩，然后让女孩原谅，并且告诉女孩自己不能没有她，可是打开门的却是女孩的父亲，而女孩就站在她父亲的身后——是女孩的遗像。女孩的父亲告诉男孩，女孩在写完这封信后，跳楼自杀了，血肉一片模糊。

——原来“对不起”也可以是种结束。

那一年，男孩疯了。

每个人在自己的生命里头，一定会遇到一个自己真正该珍惜的人。请你好好的珍惜那一个人，不是每一句的对不起，都可以换来每一句的没关系……千万不要辜负了自己心爱的人，那对谁，都不好……把这个故事传下去，让你的朋友们知道，不要随意地说出对不起……

ii read until ii cried. damn touching luhh.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 11:13 PM11:13 PM

Friday, May 22, 2009

firstly, ii would like to congrats myself. cus ii didn't let my attendance drop further. which means ii was a hardworking gurl this week. hahas. and tats a great achievement!

secondly, ii still wan to congrats myself. cus DBMS, business communications & IP.Net test is over.

last but nort least, ii wan to cry. becus, POFM and business enviroment test is coming next week. awww. >.<

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 9:57 PM9:57 PM

Thursday, May 21, 2009

xiao jing waste food again.

miie zi-lian-ing at home. lmaos.

in class.

she was trying to make her eyes look big. LOL

sch was sucky as usual. walked to amk hub wit xiao jing & jenna today. save bus fare & waste time. LOL. brought wrapping paper & black sandals. after tat met dar at my house here. passed him his anniversary gift. thn went home fer dinner. enjoy der pics.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 8:57 PM8:57 PM

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

der happy memories we had, will stay as memories forever. thank you fer der happy memories euu gave miie.
all der best to euu..

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 10:21 AM10:21 AM

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

sch was shitty today. felt damn sleepy fer all der lectures. xiao jing wasted food again. lmaos. best part in sch was, ii put my unwanted plastic bag into xiao jing's bag. thn she secretly put it back into mine. thn ii put inside hers again. and she ran after miie to take revenge. but ii didn't get caught. and while running down der stairs, a lizard crawled over her left leg and made her scream. after tat her leg went cold & she didn't have der energy to run and catch miie :D ii noe ii am evil. lmaos.

ii see tat no matter wat ii do euu wouldn't bother anymore.
moving away from ur life quietly.
ii couldn't even recalled when was der last time euu sent miie a sweet msg to make my heart fill wit happiness.
even if ii was to break down & cry.
would euu even cab down to my house to accompany miie?
we are drifting apart and ii hop euu noe der reason behind it.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 10:11 PM10:11 PM

Monday, May 18, 2009

see ii made myself a toilet cleaner in restaurant city. LOL.

sch was hectic today. cabbed down to sch cus ii overslept. end up no lecture cus it was e lecture. waste money. thn chiong proposal. der proposal is damn irritating one. so difficult to do. thn had my DBMS test. MCQ questions were tough. overall ii think can pass.. thn had ecommerce lesson. damn boring. fcuking teacher always come to my group last. last but nort least, ii wanna thank hui xiang fer der notes she wrote out that were shared among der whole class. makes life alot easier fer miie. thanks pal!

seems like euu are so damn busy playing ur game nowadays. seems like ii ain't needed in ur life anymore. enjoy ur life while ii slowly move away from ur life.

all der other gurls is pretty to euu except miie..
all der other gurls is cute to euu except miie..
all der other gurls is better to euu except miie..
just wat am ii to euu?
a thrash that nobody wants?
euu leave miie heartbroken & crying.
even when ii told euu tat ii was angry euu didn't seem to bother..
all euu cared was wat time ii leave sch.
wat time ii should be home.
have euu ever spared a thought fer my feelings?

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 7:01 PM7:01 PM

Sunday, May 17, 2009

baby ii just wan to tell euu how much ii am missing euu now.. fcuk exams.. if ii dun have so many exams, ii would be able to meet up wit my baby boy alr.. arggs.. this post is specially dedicated to euu. though euu behave damn retarded at times. but ii still love euu so. hahas.

ii love euu KHOO ZHEN DONG!!!
wahahahas~~~

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 11:07 PM11:07 PM

my cousin, miie and her friend

spot my cousin. LOL.

ii take one. nice right? hahas

lazy VS hardworking

these were der pics ii should have updated long ago. lmaos.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 10:06 AM10:06 AM

Saturday, May 16, 2009

went to my cousin's MI fair today. dunnoe why blogger refused to let miie upload my pics. maybe ii will update it tml. arggs.

to fiona darling:
be a strong gurl & forget him. ii noe forgetting someone euu loved so much is difficult. but ii think he doesn't deserves euu at all. euu two took so much effort to get tgt. yet, he is giving it up becus he has no more feelings? wat kinda guy will do such a thing if he really loves euu? ii will always be here fer euu if euu need a crying shoulder okies? love ya. cheer up gurl.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 11:57 PM11:57 PM

Friday, May 15, 2009

happy anniversary baby.. feeling quite emo now.. have ii been a good gurlfriend to euu? ii realised tat ii have been biting euu so often & it must have really hurt euu. >.<>.< will be sleeping soon cus ii am quite tired. hope tat ii can last long long wit euu and tat we will walk through all hurdles in life hand in hand tgt.. ii love euu baby. muacks.

because ii had seen couples break,
ii wan to love euu wit all my heart,
& make sure ii stay by euu no matter rain or shine..
ii wanna make sure euu feel loved by miie,
& ii hope to make euu happy.
things tat euu dun like miie to do,
ii will try nort to do.
however, ii am sorry tat sometimes ii pissed euu off wit my attitude..
ii will try to change.
to be der perfect gurlfriend fer euu.
ii am doing so much.
because ii love euu.
& ii wan euu by my side every single moment.
ii miss euu..

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 12:10 AM12:10 AM

Thursday, May 14, 2009

sch is boring as usual. couldn't get up this morning. hahas. after tat, dragg myself to sch fer der stupid attendance. didn't meet darling today. went home straight fer dinner. cus too tired alr.. pics were taken in my POFM class. it was too boring.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 9:58 PM9:58 PM

Tuesday, May 12, 2009

oh great. my stupid father stole my mouse from miie. argg.. how great!
been very lazy to blogg nowadays. cus ii gort nth interesting to blogg abt. life has been as boring fer miie in sch.. more and more homework. next week gort DBMS & IP.NET test. arggs.. need study again. DBMS is okies.. IP.NET die!!! someone help miie please!!! went to destress aft sch today. played drum wit my darling. 200 combo and ii still failed tat song. lmaos. can go bang wall liaos.

anyway, ii was randomly surfing der net when ii saw this. LOL
http://news.asiaone.com/News/AsiaOne%2BNews/Malaysia/StoryA1Story20090505-139278.html

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 9:46 PM9:46 PM

Sunday, May 10, 2009

to all der mothers in der world. ii would like to wish euu all a very happy mother's day!

to my mummy:
thank you fer raising miie until now.. der love euu showered on miie will nv be forgortten. happy mother's day to euu. hope euu like der gift ii made fer euu. love euu mother. muacks.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 2:38 PM2:38 PM

Thursday, May 7, 2009

miie and jing

firdaus

cam-whoring in class

sch was as boring as usual. woke up 7.30am in der morning to prepare fer sch. dad said he can fetch miie to sch. save miie bus & train fare. went to sch. was supposed to do practical. but ii was too sleepy.. had my tutorial. lecture. damn boring. wished it was der holidays again sia. financial lesson was der worst. teacher came late. when he came, ii was alr half asleep. wat he said, couldn't go in at all. ended up watching bleach to keep myself asleep. lmaos.

sometimes ii wished, ii would gain ur trust & tat euu would stop suspecting miie.
love was supposed to be sweet, romantic.
ii dun understand why ii am feeling so pressurised, upset, whenever euu dun trust miie.
ii wanna feel loved & trust once more.
because its euu tat ii love,
ii didn't wan to tell euu all these.
ii do love euu alot.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 7:06 PM7:06 PM

Monday, May 4, 2009

sunday:
went to visit my grandfather who just gort discharged outta hospital. zi lian in my dad's car cus ii was feeling carsick. lmaos.

today:
meet darling fer dinner after sch. sch was damn boring. wang xiao jing overslept again. lmaos. pang seh miie in class. hai wo so bored. nobody to bully. hahas.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 9:23 PM9:23 PM

Friday, May 1, 2009

[ 3 ob us ]

[ ii am like damn white. ]

[ zi lian ]

went out wit kim and gar hong today. trained down to cineleisure. wanted to catch der 3 pm 17 AGAIN. but too bad it was full house. had to wait till 5.20 fer der movie. :C while waiting fer time to pass, we walked around cineleisure find hairstyling shop. cus kim wanted to cut hair. found one shop. but der student price is also damn ex. as if they using gold equipment to cut our hair sia. =.= thn walked to heeran find. same thing. so we decided to go far east cut. cheap n nice. after tat rushed back to cine fer our movie. it was quite a nice movie. ii liked der part when der guy gives up his basketball match [damn important de. ] to marry der gurl who was pregnant wit his child. damn sweet luhh. even when he was given a second chance to choose, he still gave up his match fer his wife. aww.. after movie went to eat. looked fer alot ob places to eat. cus it was dinner time so it was damn crowded. ate dinner at long johns. queue was damn long. thn trained home eat dinner.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 10:24 PM10:24 PM