Monday, September 27, 2010

unknowingly, i began to check ur phone.
i am paranoid that she would take you away from me.
if death was my only solution,
i wouldn't hesitate to die for you.
even until now, i can't face the fact that you are not with me anymore.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 11:32 AM11:32 AM

Sunday, September 26, 2010

my last words to you.

you were the thing i wanted most on my birthday.
i find life meaningless without you.
i am tired of a love triangle.
please take good care of yourself.
i give you two my blessings..
i love you too much i can't bear the thought of losing you.
i really love you too much..

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 12:22 AM12:22 AM

Wednesday, September 15, 2010

hi,

today is the curse day. its the first month after you broke up with me and also, my birthday.
didn't celebrate at all. all i did was to rot at home. nobody asked me out. i didn't receive any presents too. i guess, i am a curse child.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 11:28 PM11:28 PM

Saturday, September 11, 2010

meet up with kzd on friday.
its definitely heartwrenching to see him.

i love you.
but you dun love me anymore.
all you care about is her.
all you will msg,
is her.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 12:46 PM12:46 PM

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

days after a break up, come days of crying nights.
its difficult, to deal with the fact that someone i had for 4 years is gone.
just like that, our relationship has ended.

i had been trying my best, to stay alive.
to be happy, just for you.
but how could i be happy when i just lost you, the guy whom i love so much.
everyday passes with tonnes of suicidal thoughts in my head.
its difficult for me, i just pray for death to take my pain away.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 10:59 AM10:59 AM

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

i learnt things about you and her last night.
it broke my heart. it really did.
i literally went crazy.
screaming around at home in the middle of the night.
i wanted so much to break my head and go into a coma.
its been less than a month since we broke up.
and you are already with a new girl.
worst thing was, you said you love me.
you love me but you are with her.
i really dun understand what on earth you are thinking.
all i understand was, you can easily find a girl and replace me in a short period of time.
i cried.
i cried myself to sleep.
its painful.
i dun wan to bear with it anymore.
i will bring these memories along with me.
i am sorry.
you sacrificed my happiness for her.
i hope you two last long.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 2:46 PM2:46 PM

Monday, September 6, 2010

there is no everlasting love in this world.
i learn my lesson when i was with you.
i learn to not get myself involve with guys anymore.
because i know that guys, are just heartless creatures that do not deserve my love.
i am falling in love with a girl.
she is sweet and nice to me.
maybe, this is really the end of us.
i had enough of crying.
enough of the sleepless nights you gave me.
enough of the many suicidal attempts i tried so hard to kill myself.
in the end, its me who suffers.
you are just the selfish guy who broke my heart,
never thinking what would happen to me thereafter.
yet, i don't hate you.
miracle isn't it?
sleeping pills and cough syrups are my best remedy now.
i really couldn't just sleep without them unless i work myself like a cow in the morning.
i am thinking of taking a second job.
i know it would be fucking tiring for me.
but i do not care.
if possible, i don't mind dying of fatigue.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 10:22 AM10:22 AM

Saturday, September 4, 2010

everybody has their one special day in a year.
you made me hate mine.
and now i even think that my birthday is cursed.
thanks to you.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 11:34 PM11:34 PM