ii am single once again.
thanks for being such a nice boyfriend.
but too bad, ii ain't a good gurlfriend.

euu said tat euu love miie, but now we are just friends.
can ii feel der same? well ii think it depends.
ii wished to feel nth and get rid ob der thrill.
ii wish ii would stop loving euu, but ii dun think ii will.

firstly, ii wanna thank euu for all der happy memories euu had given miie.
this blogg contains all my memories since der day euu left miie on 24th July 2008.
created this blogg so that euu could understand how ii feel towards euu.
der memories euu gave miie are irreplacable.
nobody can replace euu in my heart.
ii will never forget der days ii spent tgt wit euu.
der laughter euu brought miie.
der happy thought ii wished it could happen everyday.
and now everything has come to an end.
nevertheless, my feelings cannort be controlled.
ii will continue to love euu,
till one day,
euu decided to break my heart
like today.

secondly, there is many things ii still wished ii could do it wit euu.
ii wanna stay over at ur hse and wake up,
seeing myself in ur arms.
ii wan to watch der sunset wit euu,
till we grow old & die.
ii wan to marry euu,
take care ob euu whenever euu are sick,
wait fer euu when euu are back frm work.
work on a nice dinner while waiting fer euu to come home.
but now, everything has ended.

lastly, ii wanna thank euu fer der love euu had given miie.
15th dec, euu asked miie fer patch.
ii was delighted.
yet, there were doubts in my mind.
would euu leave miie once more?
would euu love miie like ii love euu?
ii tried to control my feelings fer euu.
ii didn't want to step into a love trap where ii will find no return.
ii didn't want to experience der same heartbreak
like wat ii had when ii knew euu & her stead.
however, ii realised ii couldn't control my love fer euu.
ii stepped into ur trap again.
and 6 mths from tat day,
ii received this heartbreak frm euu again.
tis time, ii dunnoe wat ii had done wrong.
cus, euu just said we were nort suitable fer each other
&
left miie crying alone,
again.
ii had nobody in which ii could talk to.
ii had nobody to share my shoulders wit.
ii wished ii could get myself drunk and forget abt everything.
deep down in my heart,
ii just noe.
ii love euu.
whenever ii close my eyes,
ii see euu smiling at miie.
it pains my heart yet ii could do nth abt it.
this is der last post ii am gonna post here.
take care hubby.
ii do love euu despite those quarrels we had.
take care when ii am gone.
dun skip ur meals so often.
take regular meals.
dun smoke so much anymore.
if only euu would listen to miie.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 1:14 AM1:14 AM