Saturday, April 4, 2009

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mummy used to tell miie this, before marriage guys will do all they can to win your heart. euu will be treated like a princess before marriage. however, ii disagree wit this sentence. today, mummy ask miie why didn't ii go out wit zhen dong. ii told her we quarrelled. her reply was, didn't he give in and let euu in? my reply to her, nort every guy is der same. nort every guy will treat euu like a princess before marriage. for example, instead ob giving in to miie, zhen dong likes to quarrel until it becomes my fault. so ii would end up apologising to him. and her reply? dun be so stupid to give in. if he was to treat euu like this before marriage, wat makes euu think he would treat euu better after marriage..

anyway, ii have been watching lots ob drama shows recently. since ii am always at home nowadays. ii realised. tv dramas like to show married guys who cheat behind their wives' back. although, euu may say its just a drama show, however ii tend to disagree. dramas often show wat happens in real life. and after watching those shows, my reflection was: should woman even get married in der first place? so wat if euu risk ur life and help ur husband give birth to children? so wat if euu make urself haggard just to look after der family? would ur husband appreciate? they would just think tat euu are old and haggard and turns them off. this would be der perfect excuse to look fer temptations outside. so wat happens to der woman in der end? she is left old and unwanted wit a broken heart. is this worth it? fer a guy tat breaks ur heart? after thinking, ii am getting to get scared ob growing up. ii dun wan to grow up and get married if this is wat will happen to miie 10 yrs from now.

to be honest, ii think tat ii am quite easy to hong. yet euu wouldn't try to humour miie at all. little things like buying miie a stalk ob rose would make miie very happy alr.. yet euu never tried. all euu noe was to argue. argue and argue, digg out der past and argue.. make miie feel like ii was in der wrong.. thn ii have to apologise to euu and euu are nort in der wrong anymore.. seriously, ii am very tired ob tat. do euu think ii enjoy arguing wit euu? been thinking alot alr. ur life is only made ob ur parents, sister, anthony and dogg. those are ur family members. ii am nort one ob them.. yeah it breaks my heart having to type all these emo stuffs down. so wat? who cares? ii am nort needed in ur life.. so wat fer bother abt miie? all euu need is ur dogg? why nort ask ur dogg to be ur gurlfriend instead??

sorry for der wordy post people. but ii ain't feeling too good right now.

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 12:35 AM12:35 AM