Tuesday, November 11, 2008
he dun wan euu. nbm.
guys are jerks in der first place. ii will always be there fer euu my dear. if euu wan to cry, anytime, just ask miie out. ii will always be there to accompany euu. ii understand how euu are feeling. becus ii had underwent der same heartbreaks before. seeing him wit another gurl makes ur heart break into a million pieces tat nth can ever mend it back. ii undergo tat suffering alr. just dun. cry fer a jerk like him. der reason he can behave so intimately wit his female classmates definitely tells euu tat it was just an excuse when he said euu two were nort compatible. my shoulder will always be there fer euu to lean on. ii will always be there fer euu to hugg.
was emo-ing in sch today. somehow. ii felt abit weird tat euu are nort msging miie anymore. although ii received alot ob sweet msges frm my ex, ii still think abt euu. perhapes. ii am really in love wit euu alr.. ii wan to be straight too. but ii just lost all my confidence in guys. after listening to ashley. ii am more afraid to consider a relationship wit guys. ii may still like zhen dong. but ii guess. ii ain't straight anymore.. somewhere in my broken heart. ii am afraid to love euu or even be wit euu again. ii wan to cry out loud. yet ii chose to keep everything inside miie.
are euu happy to see wat ii had become because ob euu? neither straight or lesbian. how ii wish a knife would fall on miie down and stab miie into pieces. since my heart was alr broken into a million pieces.
ii dunnoe wat ii am to euu in your heart. am ii just a special pillow to euu? ii dunnoe if euu still love miie or nort. all ii can tell euu is ii am tired ob guessing.. reallie tired alr.
audrey wans to meet miie on sat. dunnoe if ii should go. maybe if ii go we still stand a chance ob patching up? ii just want to be loved. loved by someone ii love. but it just seem so difficult.
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