Friday, October 24, 2008
der cut ii had promised euu.
went to his house today. because he was feeling miserable. ii wanted to be there fer him when he is feeling upset. but nevertheless, ii ended up hurting myself.. seeing his face again reminds miie ob der past.. der happie memories we shared.. how he first held my hand.. how he hugg miie & how he kissed my lips.. but now?? ii am nort his stead anymore.. wat am ii to him in his heart?? ii dunnoe.. ii seriously dunnoe.. he is attached alr.. my heart hurts.. but wat can ii do?? ii just wanna get over this damn thing quickly.. der pills ii took to numb myself.. to make myself sleep are countless alr.. der tears ii cried fer euu, are enough to flood my house.. euu came into my life.. so abruptly.. thn euu left miie crying.. so suddenly.. was love ever fair?? ii only have myself to be blamed.. why did ii treasure euu only when euu are gone?? why do ii think ob euu even till now.. as ii am typing this post, tears are still rolling down my cheeks.. ii just wanna be your little gurl once more.. but its like asking fer der impossible now.. ii cut myself again.. till euu explain yourself, ii will continue hurting myself.. it ain't my body tat hurt.. it was my heart tat is bleeding now..
ii will be meeting audrey tml.. ii am supposed to be happie.. but why am ii crying now?? to der hell wit my feelings.. ii need my pills again..
11:03 PM
der cut ii had promised euu.
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