Monday, October 27, 2008

because there was euu, there was miie..
because euu love miie, ii will love euu back..
because euu care fer miie, ii will care fer euu..
because euu were always there fer miie, ii wan to be there fer euu too..

audrey came to my house today.. we slept tgt and she hugg miie like euu used to hugg miie.. ii felt loved.. been so long since someone ever did this to miie ehh.. aft tat we went to amk hub.. play arcade n buy anklet.. we brought this pair ob anklet wit keys attached to it.. actually wanted to buy a key and a lock.. but der design ob der lock isn't nice..while buying bubble tea, ii saw this promotion face thingy so ii decided to try.. its called threading.. and trust miie, its fcuking painful.. they use this thread n pull out all my hair.. kns.. ii am never going to do it again.. gurls wan pretty bu yao ming.. tong si wo.. thn we went home hand in hand.. so sweet uhh??

last night ii mistook audrey tot she wan ask miie fer stead.. hahas.. cus she suddenly say wo ai ni.. ii will never leave euu crying.. hahas.. thn ii asked if she is going to ask miie fer stead.. she say wouldn't it be weird if ii asked euu at 2 am in der morning?? ii replied her wit, tat goes to show tat we are a unique couple mahhs.. hahas.. actually its weird uhh.. cus we haven stead alr kissing each other le.. stead alr how?? can't imagine.. hahas.. but ii think she wun wan to do tat kinda things.. cus she very shy de.. hahas..

ii have tot abt my relationship wit zhen dong.. and ii believe things had come to an end.. cynthia said tat we seem to love each other but are just trying to spite each other.. hmm.. but ii dun think so?? cus it seems like ii am der only one holding on to this relationship while he is happily dating his daughter?? ii wanted to die so much on friday night.. because ii keep thinking abt him.. and my heart just dun wan to let it go.. ii just couldn't sleep fer der whole night.. ii swallowed 5 panadol pills and before ii was going to swallow more, audrey called miie and cried.. she couldn't bear to see miie suffer because ob him.. ii am a reallie stupid gurl.. on fri, ii skipped sch to pei him.. because ii was worried and wanted to be there fer him.. hui xiang did ask miie nort to go.. she said. since he gort so many gurls to accompany him, why should euu go and accompany him?? ii said because ii still love him.. because ii still cared fer him.. should ii have gone in der first place?? i dunnoe.. days after we broke up, it was miie tat can't live without him.. he was happily enjoying his freedom.. ii have failed as a gurlfriend.. nevertheless. ii noe ii had tried to win euu back.. if ii do commit sucide one day, it would be because ob euu ii swear.. because ii realised, ii had never loved someone so deep down into my heart before.. and, ii am still cutting myself.. because ob my word to euu..

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 11:01 PM11:01 PM