Sunday, September 14, 2008
ii am so confused now.. ii dunnoe if ii am straight, lesbian or bisexual..
ytd night, audrey confessed to miie.. she said she liked miie.. there was tis happie feeling in my heart.. but ii still like zhen dong.. ii am so confused now.. ii wanna accept her.. but ii just can't do it..
audrey is a nice gurl.. friday night, ii went to meet her, shan heng & vicky fer der first time.. shan heng & vicky are her friends.. they were nice to miie.. especially audrey.. ii noe she converted to a lesbian because she had witness her dad hitting her mum, and how her brother is playing wit his gurlfriends.. its quite a sad thing to hear.. maybe because ob tat barrier, she can nv be straight again.. i dunnoe.. as we gurls sat at der playground & talk.. ii reallie enjoy stroking her hair.. sayang-ing her.. it reminds miie o zhen dong sayang-ing miie in der past.. but wats past is alr past.. somehow, seeing der sadness in her face, ii feel like giving her a kiss to make her happie.. ii am still at a dilemma if ii am a bi, straight or les.. ii am reallie confused.. ii do have feelings fer her but ii can't put him down.. ii can't forget him.. but ii guess, its okies if ii convert because ii gort too many heartbreaks by guys right?? ii mean, ii reallie need love now.. so desperately... its okies to be a les as long as there is people tat still love miie in this world right?? but ii am also afraid tat ii would hurt audrey if he decides to return to miie one day.. ii am so confused now..
audrey said tat she will try her best to jio miie after her o levels.. hopefully, she will bring miie more happiness than heartbreaks bahhs..
tml is my birthday and ii noe something bad is bound to happen.. ever since my sec 3 birthday.. something bad will befall on my birthday.. so ii guess, ii will be prepared to receive more heartbreaks from him.. hais..
audrey.. ii think ii reallie do need euu..
7:11 PM
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