nth much to say.. been thinking too much abt miie & him alr.. hope tat he is happie without miie.. wun be affecting your life very soon.. it would be best if ii disappeared from your life isn't it?? didn't sleep well.. had nightmares ob him being wit other gurls.. been crying till 3am.. was very tired but ii didn't dare to fall asleep.. ii dun wan those nightmares.. they have been haunting miie fer weeks alr.. gonna go crazy soon..

went to study wit jing today.. though ii didn't have der mood to study.. was feeling very sleepy.. but at least, ii tried to study.. so jun xiang kor euu must be happie to hear this okies.. jerrold bro tried to motivate miie to study by going on a date wit miie if ii study.. lol.. ii said ii would study if my ex returns to miie.. he said he can't guarantee tat but he can go on a day wit miie if ii study.. hahas.. both brothers are nice to miie.. after studying was very tired alr.. yet, ii still go his house.. buy donuts fer him.. ii am afraid tat he would be hungry when he wakes up.. dunnoe why ii am doing all these too.. maybe its because ii wan him to noe tat ii am realie sorries fer wat ii had done to him alr.. he just thinks ii am good at weaving stories.. my heart is broken alr.. so broken tat ii think it will take alot ob time to mend.. maybe by der time ii die also haven mend.. tml is my maths test.. ii dunnoe how to cope wit my studies also.. need lots ob luck tml.

ii still begg fer euu to return..
yet, ii dun ask fer it anymore..
because ii am tired ob asking..
my life is in a mess..
its all because ob euu..
yet, euu just DUN WAN to return to miie..
ii deliver lunch to euu everyday..
hoping tat it would melt your heart..
ii clean your house fer euu..
hoping tat euu would feel blessed having such a nice EX gurlfriend..
yet, its tre-passing your house to euu..
even if ii reallie die..
even if ii reallie go mad..
euu wouldn't bother too.. right??
euu would just think tat ii am threatening euu or watsoever..
ii am tired..
tired ob tis kinda life..
ii am human.. and ii do need love..
ii wan your love back so desperately..
euu wouldn't give it back to miie..
ii dunnoe how much longer ii can endure this..
but ii noe..
ii truely love euu..
before ii reallie go mad..
ii wanna say.. ii love euu one last time to euu..

my eyes, are red from crying alr..

lonely..