went to his house at 11.30 am.. he had just finished bathing.. ii was supposed to pei him go eat.. but because ii didn't want to eat. he didn't want to eat..thereafter, we stayed at his house to watch der olympics.. abt half an hour ltr, he decided to go and buy food alone.. ii guess he is reallie too hungry le bahhs.. he said to buy porridge fer miie & ii agreed.. ii didn't noe tat he was calling miie after he left till he came back.. & ii had rejected all calls from my phone.. so he was angry.. after he came back.. he scolded miie, thn went out.. ii asked him where he was going.. he just replied. somewhere.. as ii watch him leave der house.. ii felt a sharp pain piercing into my heart.. it was der pain ob heartbreak.. after he left, ii decided to chase after him.. ii ran to der lift.. but he was gone..as ii looked down upon der flats.. ii saw him walking to sun plaza, smoking.. ii wanted to chase after him.. yet, all ii could was to see him walk further & further away from miie.. ii wanted to jump down der block ob flats so much just to be wit him.. yet, ii wasn't tall enough to climb up.. as ii watch him, walking away from miie, ii wanted him to glance up his block ob flats so much.. yet he didn't.. ii was left to stand there.. watching him leave.. ii went back to his house.. swallowed der whole ob der burning porridge.. thn went to toilet to vomit.. ii just didn't have der appetite.. yet, ii am glad.. because ii finished wat he brought fer miie.. its der thoughts tat counts, isn't it?? after he came back, we did something.. made him happie.. so happie to see his smile again.. ii apologised fer wat ii had done.. & he forgave miie..

at around 4, ii went to meet zhi chao & zhi wei.. we were supposed to watch der fireworks.. jerrold was so late.. luckily, we went to eat at NEW YORK while waiting fer him.. ii shared wit zhi chao & zhi wei two pizzas.. because ii noe ii wouldn't be able to finish on my own.. and because der price was like super expensive.. holiday wat.. wat to do.. after dinner actually wan go see fireworks de.. but too bad it was raining.. and it was super crowded.. so we ended up watching movie lol.. hahas.. after movie went home.. place was like super crowded.. traffic jam sia.. people were all all walking super lowly.. was so pissed off.. then, ii had to go home myself.. cause zhi chao, jerrold & zhi wei were taking purple line home.. ii ownself take red line nors.. luckily ii found a seat.. then dun have to stand.. hahas..

after tat ii met him.. he came to my house to take back his DS charger & his mother's phone.. was kinda upset to see him leave.. but ii couldn't do anything much.. cause my parents was there to kao bei kao bu.. especially my stupid FATHER.. say & say & say.. say wat break alr why he still come?? huh?! then ask miie dun so cheap lahhs.. he dun wan miie.. ii still keep pestering him.. so heartbroken to hear tat.. hais.. its okies, my sufferings wouldn't last long..

counting down to 15th sept.. death day..

lonely..