woke up around 10 today.. having difficulties breathing.. dunnoe is becus ob der weather or wat.. no appetite to eat also.. ii think ii going fall sick le.. but anyway, who cares huh?? die le even better right?? thn dun need to suffer by der way euu treat miie.. yeah.. death is good.. he said he would be granting miie my wish to die on tuesday.. ii am so happie to be able to be killed by my love one..

11 days after euu left my life.. life was as lonely as it could ever get.. things weren't going too well fer miie.. ii still miss euu, need euu, and want euu, badly.. euu weren't there fer miie anymore.. somehow, ii still miss der days where ii lie on your warm shoulders & fall asleep on your bed.. when ii open my eyes, euu would be there sleeping soundly.. adorably by my side.. how ii miss those days where euu cooked fried rice fer miie.. ii loved your fried rice.. because ii noe, no doubt its just a plate ob fried rice, ii noe its cooked wit much love from euu.. ii also reflected on my behaviour to euu.. ii realie had treated euu fer granted.. euu went to learn html so tat euu could help miie wit my html project.. yet, ii treated it fer granted.. euu went to work to buy psp fer miie, ii noe, seeing miie happie was wat euu wanted.. ii was happie when euu brought psp fer miie.. yet, did ii treasure euu?? ii asked myself.. no, ii didn't.. ii lied to euu so as to go home wit my new friend..wat a bad stead ii am.. ii reallie deserve to die.. ii hope euu would realie give miie one last chance to love euu.. to return der love euu put on miie.. ii would realie treasure euu.. ii swear.. pls return to miie.. ii reallie had eaten my own medicine le.. ii wun treat euu as granted anymore.. as long as euu return to miie.. ii am happie..

ii woke up in der middle ob der night & ii notice my guy wasn't by my side

couldn't sworn ii was dreaming fer him ii was feeling so i had to take a little ride.. back tracking over these few years trying to figure out wat i did to make it go bad.. ever since my guy left miie my whole life came crashing..

can't believe ii had a guy like euu & ii just let euu walk right outta my life..

after all ii put euu through.. euu still stuck around & stay by my side..

wat reallie hurt miie is ii broke your heart baby euu were good guy & ii had no right.. ii reallie wanna make things right..

lonely..

-- because ii knew ii was never important to you. 11:59 AM11:59 AM