Saturday, August 2, 2008
ii didn't sleep at all last night.. was quarrelling wit him till 4am.. ii didn't wanna quarrel.. but somehow, euu seem to love quarrelling wit miie... der words he used on miie was so sacastic & heartbreaking.. ii couldn't stand it & ended up crying.. but his solid heart didn't even bother.. ii couldn't believe my ears when he said tat everything after he dumped miie was rubbish to him.. perhapes ii shouldn't have try to ask fer a patch up at all.. things are like so one-sided now.. a 2 year relationship is gone in a flash.. fer my moment ob folly, ii apologised fer wat ii did wrong.. yeah.. ii shouldn't have lie to euu in der first place.. euu said ii was selfish.. perhapes ii reallie am.. ii tot abt our whole relationship during der night ii didn't sleep.. it pains my heart to see our happie memories just becoming history.. it takes 2 to start a relationship & only 1 to break it.. life is just so unfair.. isn't it??
euu said wat ii am feeling now was just my own medicine.. euu said if euu reallie wanted revenge, euu would do it 10 times more.. and tat is to bring a different individual gurl everyday down to my poly to let miie see.. ii dun understand.. if euu had alr felt der misery, would euu wan ur loved one to feel it as well?? opps. said wrong.. ii am nort ur loved one anymore.. its just been less than a month since euu dumped miie & euu are telling miie tat euu can't even say der words ii love euu alr... things are passing so quickly.. ii didn't have time to breathe.. last night, ii so happened to chance upon jia wei's (a gurl tat liked him) blogg.. and now did ii realised she was always going to meet euu.. going to your house to sleep.. ii tot your bed was only meant fer miie.. now ii am wrong.. so now wit miie outta der way, euu can happily bring other gurls to your house.. randomly let them lie on your bed.. since nobody ould be feeling jealous anymore... my heart was alr broken since euu said everything ii did after euu dumped miie was rubbish to euu.. perhapes ii am thrash to euu.. thn why nort give der rubbish euu dun wan to others?? they may appreciate my rubbish euu noe??
exams are coming. ii dun have any mood to study.. ii have tried to get euu back.. cutting wrist, cleaning your room, giving wat euu wanted, eating panadols, cried all i could.. euu still wouldn't return.. furthermore, euu said wat ii did was rubbish.. ii am tired.. realie tired.. so hurt and tired.. last but nort least, ii gave euu your choice, euu choose to kill miie.. ii am gladly waiting to be killed by euu.. its great to be killed by someone euu love right??
lonely...
10:12 AM
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